As I rocked Little Man to sleep today I realized how different it is going to be having two children here. I have been so anxious and selfish wanting my body back and wanting this birth tho happen I haven't taken the time to cherish my alone time with Little Man. As he lay snoring sitting on my pregnant belly with his arms wrapped around my neck its just hit me how much I love being with him.
Sure I knew I love spending time with him, but just holding him like that and then imagining how it will be with two. We are aware he is going to be jealous having to share his family and home with a new creature. We never really put much thought into how much it will change our time with him however. I mean when he needs to go down for his naps I'm not sure how I will manage trying to rock two. I'm sure we will manage, but it will be different. There will be two sets of arms trying to hug, two creatures snoring, and two mouths drooling instead of one.
So I was just holding him contemplating how precious these last few days are. To spend time one on one with him and to hold him exactly how he likes. To rock him uninterrupted, to hold him as he sleeps and to enjoy just being his mommy.
I am so looking forward to having the Princess arrive while I should be here cherishing these times with him alone. I hope he copes well with her arrival and I will definitely try my hardest to make sure he still gets mommy time alone. Until then I think I will just hold him and love him as much as I can before I have another precious creature who needs tended to.